Please pray for me on Tues. I have another MRI, routinely scheduled every 2 months. Didn't realize my appointment was for that. Just thought I was seeing the doctor. Please pray for another good report.
I am beginning to feel the ravages of dealing with this day in and day out. I am dealing not only with my personal crisis, but also the political and economic crisis of our nation which most definitely is cause for concern for any God fearing person. I do not really feel discouraged, but maybe just uncertain about where God is taking me. I must choose daily to depend on God's resources for I truly have none of my own! I am emotionally bankrupt!! But I serve a God who is able to keep whatever I will commit to Him.
From a little book called Treasures of darkness, "We take our life and health for granted. Each day we awake believing that it will be the same as the day before, and the day before that. We do not expect anything to disrupt the constancy of our lives. So when the unexpected occurs, when the sameness of health is exchanged for the sameness of disease, we are shaken to our very core. We find out that what we had relied upon was not reliable after all. We quake and our hearts race with anxiety and fear.
Into the tempest of our shattered lives a voice is spoken. 'Be still, and know that I am God.' Those words, 'Be still,' spoken in the same voice that calmed the violent storm on the Sea of Galilee, are spoken over the raging riot of our fears. God is not outside our troubles, but within them, present with us. The voice is the voice of 'our refuge and strength,' our 'ever-present help in trouble.' Just when all seems to be lost in chaos, when it seems that there is nothing that can be relied upon. the ever-present God is there. He and He alone can be relied upon. He will not forsake us and cannot be shaken. We can say with assurance the the Lord our God is with us and, 'therefore we will not fear'."
The lady who wrote this book is a cancer SURVIVOR! She gives me hope. I sharing this, I have laid my heart bare, making myself vulnerable to the possibility that I may not receive healing. I want to be healed. I believe with ALL MY HEART that it is God's will for me to have healing in my body. Because I am His child, I KNOW His compassion is turned toward me, but for some reason there is no manifestation of healing in my body at this time. I pray that God will increase my faith, and bring me to the point in relationship to Him that He wants me to be, if I am never healed. That will not change who God is and what He can do in my life, and the lives of those of you who are reading this blog!!
Ps. 73:26--"My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my hear and my portion forever!"
1 comment:
Annalie, you are in my prayers and the prayers of many at JWBC. You are such an example to us all of how to trust God to walk with us through all the tests, trials, and temptations of our lives. You constantly amaze me and I am so thankful that you are my sister/friend. Thanks again for writing a devotion for our booklet. I picked you up a copy and will bring it by this week. I will call first.
Much love and many blessings always,
Linda
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